A Day at the Mall

Today I continued my plan to walk this baby out. I spent a good 3 1/2 hours walking the mall with friends. There were 4 of us and I was the only one without a stroller, so we were quite a crowd. While at the mall I bought the cutest dress for the baby from Gymboree. It is whiteish ivory silk with a few tiny purple embroidered flowers on the bodice, it is my back up blessing dress in case I don't find anything I love more. After shopping for a while we took an ice cream break and sat outside on some benches. While we were chillin' this lady with a stroller came up and asked if she could sit with us. She seemed a little strange from the get go and I just got a bad vibe from her. Then she told us all her baby was 15 months and she was 16 weeks pregnant. She then started asking really intrusive questions. The girl was creeping me out so with escape in mind I said I needed to go get a pretzel, two of the other girls said they needed to change their babies' diapers (it turns out they where creeped out too). It was then that the girl told me she had no money for food, no where to live, and no job. I got the impression from her that she was not unuse to sharing this information. Now, I'm never quite sure if I respond to some situations in a certain cynical way because I grew up in Chicago. I grew up hearing to give money to charities not to individuals and there was just something not quite right about this lady. I don't know if I had such a need to get away from her because I am pregnant and felt vulnerable and unsafe or what, but I practically ran away from her. And for the rest of the day I have just been thinking about her poor homeless baby. She told us she had considered putting her daughter up for adoption but then decided not to. I'm sure that child hasn't had her shots, she probably isn't receiving the nutrients she needs from food and I really doubt the lady has been to the doctor about her unborn child. Its just depressing and I feel guilty I just ran away from her. But at the same time I can't deny I felt an overwhelming prompting to flee. So that whole situation has been troubling me and I haven't been able to fall asleep tonight. Anyway when I got back from the mall my cute husband was home and wanted to take me on one last date before the baby comes. We went and saw National Treasure 2 and tried out a new Mexican restaurant. It was really fun and I can't remember the last time we went to a movie. And Diane Kruger's wardrobe in that movie is to die for! This day has just made me realize how grateful I am for my husband, home, and our little baby on the way.